Николай Репулшин

Today is the day... To destroy mankind and all that it stands for. To live my life the way I want to. To do what I believe is right. To devour enemies and celebrate life with friends. To never give up even though it hurts. To fight the blackness inside. To walk alone. To go beyond. To look within. To give yourself. To love and to hate. ~ There are no more barriers to cross. All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it I have now surpassed. My pain is constant and sharp, and I do not hope for a better world for anyone. In fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no one to escape. But even after admitting this, there is no catharsis; my punishment continues to elude me, and I gain no deeper knowledge of myself. No new knowledge can be extracted from my telling. This confession has meant nothing. ~ intoxicaded with madness im in love with my sadness